break it out

Thu, 11 Jun 2009 02:28:16 GMT

im pretty much over it right now. yeah. over it completely.

Fri, 05 Jun 2009 22:57:55 GMT

its amazing how one random medical procedure can bring people together.
danny had surgery today. it was diagnosed as an umbilical hernia and was going to take anywhere between 2-6 weeks recovery time.
this random surgery prevented him from coming up to tallahassee today for amy's birthday, so it sucked, but it needed to be taken care of ASAP.
when they went into surgery today they realized it wasnt a hernia, thankfully, instead it was just a weird cyst that would have less than a week recovery time.

of course i was worried about the procedure.
i do fine with surgeries and hospital visits and weird medical diagnosis' but not when im not there to witness them.
waiting by the phone for a phone call that says everything is okay is the most nerve raking thing in the entire world.
but i was getting regularly updated about danny's surgery by his sister. and then his dad called me afterwards to give me the 411 on the whole post diagnosis.

so of course i am overly relieved and extremely happy that everything went ridiculously smooth.
what i love the most is that his family knew who danny cared about the most to contact. me, just me. and to top it all of danny asked if i had been updated when he woke up afterwards.

i love technology and medical advancements. etc. it has been able to save my brother from dying. my mom from dying. my dad from never being able to walk again. caleb not dying from lymphoma. and danny not getting ill.

so be thankful and never ever go day without saying i love you to the people you care about the most. you never know when random things, no matter how small they are, occur and still can scare the bejezus out of you.

Sun, 31 May 2009 03:34:16 GMT

i miss you. you know it. come back.

Thu, 21 May 2009 05:37:28 GMT

even though i get frustrated sometimes. i am truly the happiest girl in the world. truly. with all my shitty up's and downs and issues that never seem to just effing leave i am still so happy. every morning, throughout the day, before i sleep. since the day i turned 20, my life has been amazing.

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 16:22:55 GMT

so i have not written an entry since like the last week of school.
and since then wow. a lot.

my summer consisted of :
-2 car accidents. one serious one not.
-vacation to nyc and penn.
-ucf weekend where we got down and dirrty and crunk.
-fsu orientation.
-working a whole shit load.
-hanging out with my boys a lot.
-chillin with shar and juli.
-meeting new people.
and yeahh a lot more..

but now its one week be4 i move up to fsu.
and yeahh im starting to get a little bit sad.

i have these 3 boys.
who are my life.
jose,anthony, and LB.
and they are gonna be seniors. so im leaving them behind.
hurts more than anything.
these boys were my friends when no one else was. and weve stuck together for 3 years.
they are my rocks. my brothers. my life basically.
i cry sometimes wondering how im supposed to function without knowing i can just call jose and be like come pick me up i wanna come over.
or anthony and jose calling me saying open the front door im here.
or having LB scare the shit out of me when he randomly shows up at my job at closing and saying alex get in the car were hanging out
or having all three of them make fun of me like crazy and then say ALEX WE LOVE YOU.
or climbing into jose's sweaters getting under the covers and just knowing this is where i want to be.
or singing loudly with my feet up in anthony's car to the best rock mixes ever.

i dont know how im going to be leave them.

and my dumb lil brother.
leaving him is the hardest.
hes my ultimate best friend.
my world.
hes me but just a boy.
entering 9th grade now.
and i wont be here for him as much.
he turns to me for everything.
and i hafta be on the phone .
this is just making me depressed.

but yeah.
im done.

Wed, 11 May 2005 02:55:52 GMT

Tue, 10 May 2005 02:45:20 GMT

Happy b-day my angel , Lauren!!! Happy 16th and many more to come!

RIP

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 15:45:15 GMT

RIP
Jordan Carver
April 29, 2005

I only knew you through friends . Never rlly got a chance to talk to you . Small talk is all i have exchanged with you . But you knew my friends.. you knew stephanie . And she knew you. So it affects me .

Watch over all of your friends.. you will be greatly missed by people all over ...

<333
Alex

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 02:43:10 GMT

I <333 my angel, Lauren

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 23:01:12 GMT

just when you thought all of your sadness has subsided you again experience a death of a fellow passenger in the car with miggz. nikki passed on to a better world this afternoon. another one I knew . why did god have to take them from our grasp? all i can think is that they have a more important job up in heaven.

I <3333 you Nikki. You were always laughing and smiling . Your beautiful and a you have the best personality ever. I know your in a better place where you can fill the world with smiles by watching over all of us . i will miss you !

Rest in peace Nikki!

Sara Im praying and thinking about you all the time . I dont know you but i hope you come out of this state and live with all the people that are so close to you. May you and Nikki and Miguel stay best friends forever ... but its not your turn to leave this earth . i kno it !

God please protect Sara and watch over Miggz and Nikki .. and please bless everyone that loves any of these three beautiful souls. Anyone that was affected please comfort .

<333

RIP Miguel "Miggz" Ramos
RIP Angela "Nikki" Verrusio

Mon, 28 Feb 2005 20:28:15 GMT

Your are loved by many and we all will miss you. I wish I would have had a longer time to get to know you. Your time on this earth was to short. I will miss you Miggz. And I know other people miss you so so much. You will always be in our hearts!

For all new members!!!

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 21:42:24 GMT